Been a few days since posting. Lots of thoughts running through my mind – transcribed lines here and there, on my brain, and then they disappeared, probably never to be remembered.
This time next week I’ll be on vacation – that means that one of two things occur. I either take a real vacation – free from work, life, thinking, or I think even more. Brain goes in to overdrive and I write alot. So we shall see what happens there.
Just came across this in iTunes. The title sums up what I wanted this post to be about anyway.
So, I was reading an acquaintance’s MySpace blog, their last entry dated months ago talking about how 2008 has been perfect. Really, really great to them to use exact quotes. I don’t know what I can say of 2008 thus far. At the end of it all, I’d say it would be as shitty and indifferent so far as 2007, but 2008 isn’t over yet and hasn’t treated me nearly as bad as 2007. Not nearly as many nights laying awake, staring at ceilings, shedding tears, listening to “Dreams Of Leaving”. Work is ok, I’m happy where that’s going to an extent, but I am starting to see why other co workers would start to get paranoid. Maybe I am starting to get paranoid, too. Who knows.
We’re on the same page, me and her, for the most part. She’s the reason 2008 has been good to me. You can wake up and she’ll either be in my arms, or eyes closed facing me, breathing silently, and everything seems to be so peaceful. It’s why presently I’m ok with everything for the most part. While we are on the same page in that we have a mutual agreement that are feelings for one another are equal, she isn’t ready to budge. She doesn’t want to take that one step – giant to some, in progression’s case logical – due to a small infraction. I see her point, odds are I probably couldn’t and trust her and would be let down yet again in the end. But why not give it a shot, the ole college try? Don’t let one shitty relationship and some guy from four years ago define you in your love life for good. Please give me a chance. Give us a chance. It sounds that we could see ourselves enough that I would be pleased to an exent. Of course I, too, wish things would be different, but it’s not for now. We both know this is shitty, we acknowledge that it sucks. Guess I will just take your advice – suck it up, realize that it is what it is, and continue to ask God to make this work. To this date I hold no regrets and I still mean what I said 24 hours ago. If it’s right forever so be it, I don’t mind.
I guess as a whole 2008 has been shitty and indifferent thus far, save for these last several weeks. Few more months to go until the final votes are in and we make one last tally to decide.
Eh.
